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Jun. 4th, 2004 11:32 amBusy busy. Not neglecting self for others, but I've scheduled creative time into my week; that smack of oddness for me. However, if I want to make jewelry, I need the structure of a set time and place, so there it is. Sadly, it's at the cost of my Monday eves, which would otherwise be the possibility of hanging out w/Dave around 10 PM, but that is a possibility, and the jewelry will eventually make me money, which will enable me to spend time with people at a distance, which takes money. Therefore, Monday night = jewelry night.
I never know how much of what he says is stuff he knows is fantasy, will not happen, and stuff that he wants and is willing to make happen. It's a bit unnerving. I'm sure that's his intent.
Ahhhh, weekend with others. I am greatly anticipating many good moments this weekend, both in and out of clothing. (I wonder if I'll be sleeping next to anyone Saturday eve?) First, tonight there will be a surprise (costume not included?), followed tomorrow by a not-chance encounter with a friend's friend, followed by a formal dinner. Note to self: remember to drink water, don't want to get too parched. Sooner or later I'll probably have to buy high-heeled shoes that I won't like wearing, just to make an outfit work.
Poly is not for everyone, even when they think it is. If one's SO says it's okay to have other relationships, and then freaks out when other relationships occur, even when you've given warning that this might happen, that's very hard to take and a tough spot for you and the other person to be in. You might have the long-range goodness in mind, but I'm here for you while the short-term part sucks, honey. You're an incredibly strong person, and I hope you don't get hurt too badly. I'll talk with you later today. [yes, specific recipient in mind, and zir can out zirself (is that correct usage?) if zir wants.]
I never know how much of what he says is stuff he knows is fantasy, will not happen, and stuff that he wants and is willing to make happen. It's a bit unnerving. I'm sure that's his intent.
Ahhhh, weekend with others. I am greatly anticipating many good moments this weekend, both in and out of clothing. (I wonder if I'll be sleeping next to anyone Saturday eve?) First, tonight there will be a surprise (costume not included?), followed tomorrow by a not-chance encounter with a friend's friend, followed by a formal dinner. Note to self: remember to drink water, don't want to get too parched. Sooner or later I'll probably have to buy high-heeled shoes that I won't like wearing, just to make an outfit work.
Poly is not for everyone, even when they think it is. If one's SO says it's okay to have other relationships, and then freaks out when other relationships occur, even when you've given warning that this might happen, that's very hard to take and a tough spot for you and the other person to be in. You might have the long-range goodness in mind, but I'm here for you while the short-term part sucks, honey. You're an incredibly strong person, and I hope you don't get hurt too badly. I'll talk with you later today. [yes, specific recipient in mind, and zir can out zirself (is that correct usage?) if zir wants.]
