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Once again,
Feb. 21st, 2005 11:47 amI overidentified with the protagonist of the book I was reading. I stayed in a B&N in Framingham while Dave went to a meeting nearby and read up to page 360 (I think) of Incubus Dreams. I'll do the commentary on that elsewhere; however, in this book, she finally FINALLY deals with issues I have been dealing with a lot lately, in ways that totally made me ... guffaw? Chortle? Snarl? I don't know, but I was really into it, so much so that I failed to notice Dave walk up to me until he was a few steps away. Given that earlier in the read, I had been noting most everyone who came in the door, this is noteworthy. I think my mood was also affected by my lack of food management for the day; I had leftovers from breakfast, but the place tossed my leftovers and instead gave me baklava, which is lovely and excellent, but it's not the eggs that would've made another meal. I'm a bit done with excessive dessertness for a while.
I'm definitely one who believes that if someone around me is not doing well, it is of course my responsibility to make the situation gets better for that person, moreso for my friends than for random acquaintances. This, as we know, is just not always true, and sometimes it's emphatically not true. However, I am keenly aware of how people are doing, usually, and it affects me in some way. I'm wondering how much of that vibe influenced me. Happily, the part of my back that was really hurting me yesterday is much better today. (Hmmm, does that sentence fit here, or is it only connected to the backrub? I don't know...)
I don't do energy work the way I've heard other people describe it (that is, with intention and background preparation), and I'm not trained in massage therapy. I do backrubs, though, and I incorporate visualization, and Saturday morning I worked on Dave's back for a good 30-45 minutes. He had some serious tension stored up there. For part of it I imagined, not quite visualized, and spoke out loud to help him work with the image, the excess energy/stress not being pressed into other of his muscles (which is how he laughingly mentioned it), but moved out and away from his body. I commented later that maybe I had been incomplete, since now my back was hurting in the same spot as his worst knots had been. Am I allowed to say "I don't really believe in that stuff" when I use it anyway and hope it works for others? I think not. If I choose to use those methods, I really need to make sure I'm using them properly.
I'm definitely one who believes that if someone around me is not doing well, it is of course my responsibility to make the situation gets better for that person, moreso for my friends than for random acquaintances. This, as we know, is just not always true, and sometimes it's emphatically not true. However, I am keenly aware of how people are doing, usually, and it affects me in some way. I'm wondering how much of that vibe influenced me. Happily, the part of my back that was really hurting me yesterday is much better today. (Hmmm, does that sentence fit here, or is it only connected to the backrub? I don't know...)
I don't do energy work the way I've heard other people describe it (that is, with intention and background preparation), and I'm not trained in massage therapy. I do backrubs, though, and I incorporate visualization, and Saturday morning I worked on Dave's back for a good 30-45 minutes. He had some serious tension stored up there. For part of it I imagined, not quite visualized, and spoke out loud to help him work with the image, the excess energy/stress not being pressed into other of his muscles (which is how he laughingly mentioned it), but moved out and away from his body. I commented later that maybe I had been incomplete, since now my back was hurting in the same spot as his worst knots had been. Am I allowed to say "I don't really believe in that stuff" when I use it anyway and hope it works for others? I think not. If I choose to use those methods, I really need to make sure I'm using them properly.
