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Dear Not-Exactly-Crush At Work:
May. 10th, 2005 11:58 amI just wanted to say that I like you a lot, even though I don't really know you. I thought you were a lesbian until I read your blog and some blogs you've listed as links, and realized that you seem to be connected to (not living with) a person named Carlos (you never say "boyfriend", nor does he give you a title). I'm not physically attracted to you - I don't think I've ever straight-out lusted after a girl; it starts with mental attraction. I like the way you think. I'm attracted to the passion with which you speak about gender issues in eduation, AIDS policy and the media's underreporting of important news, the way you're critical of your own consumption of information. I like your joie de vivre.
I've learned that you're Lutheran, daughter of a minister, moved around a bit as a kid, feel a deep spirituality, enjoy community service, read a lot more than I do, go out and do fun but not mainstream NYC things, and enjoy nature. I find it interesting to see how your look changes depending on what you're wearing: you know how to dress to look most "professional", you have casual teacher-wear, and then there are pics of you in grubbies dealing with concrete, an in each instance you seem at ease. That's awesome. Again, I'm highly amused by our few commonalities - B had some of the same characteristics... in fact, a lot.
So: I'm not mailing this to you, I'm not telling you about this journal (though you know of my other one), but I just wanted to get this out of my system. I'd like to be your friend on a social level because I think you'd make me a better person and I'd enjoy hanging out with you. I doubt it'll happen; we occupy different spaces and I don't know how to integrate myself into your niches w/o being pushy, and that is one thing I'm generally not. Also, my ideal 5-yr plan would be to find a NJM with a stable job to marry who was poly, we lived near enough my current dom to continue enjoying that relationship, get my PsyD, work part-time at a crisis hotline or hospital, made and sold jewelry, and got to maintain my current friendships. Location could be variable; ownership of property, better car, negotiable; better physical shape would be nice.
Thanks for being friendly and amusing in this workplace where most people are less so.
I've learned that you're Lutheran, daughter of a minister, moved around a bit as a kid, feel a deep spirituality, enjoy community service, read a lot more than I do, go out and do fun but not mainstream NYC things, and enjoy nature. I find it interesting to see how your look changes depending on what you're wearing: you know how to dress to look most "professional", you have casual teacher-wear, and then there are pics of you in grubbies dealing with concrete, an in each instance you seem at ease. That's awesome. Again, I'm highly amused by our few commonalities - B had some of the same characteristics... in fact, a lot.
So: I'm not mailing this to you, I'm not telling you about this journal (though you know of my other one), but I just wanted to get this out of my system. I'd like to be your friend on a social level because I think you'd make me a better person and I'd enjoy hanging out with you. I doubt it'll happen; we occupy different spaces and I don't know how to integrate myself into your niches w/o being pushy, and that is one thing I'm generally not. Also, my ideal 5-yr plan would be to find a NJM with a stable job to marry who was poly, we lived near enough my current dom to continue enjoying that relationship, get my PsyD, work part-time at a crisis hotline or hospital, made and sold jewelry, and got to maintain my current friendships. Location could be variable; ownership of property, better car, negotiable; better physical shape would be nice.
Thanks for being friendly and amusing in this workplace where most people are less so.
