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About my future.
About my present.
At least I keep getting glimpes of how my past fits in to who I think I am now. That's a comfort. Relaxation exercise: self-hypnotism, altered state. Certain elements of imaginative play as a child: repeating in adult situations. These two recently-realized things have amused me the most recently.
We went through no-libido, we hit a high again, and now I'd say we're in a negative patch, where I want to want, or I actively don't want. It's annoying. It too shall pass. I'm glad to be staying with a friend this weekend. I'd like to stay through Monday but alas, I have things to accomplish at work, and I haven't quite worked 8 extra hours last week to skip an entire day.
I have to work to maintain a positive tone of voice sometimes. I wonder how people don't notice, but then realize that I don't want them to notice, so it's good they don't.
About my present.
At least I keep getting glimpes of how my past fits in to who I think I am now. That's a comfort. Relaxation exercise: self-hypnotism, altered state. Certain elements of imaginative play as a child: repeating in adult situations. These two recently-realized things have amused me the most recently.
We went through no-libido, we hit a high again, and now I'd say we're in a negative patch, where I want to want, or I actively don't want. It's annoying. It too shall pass. I'm glad to be staying with a friend this weekend. I'd like to stay through Monday but alas, I have things to accomplish at work, and I haven't quite worked 8 extra hours last week to skip an entire day.
I have to work to maintain a positive tone of voice sometimes. I wonder how people don't notice, but then realize that I don't want them to notice, so it's good they don't.
