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Oct. 12th, 2022 12:57 pmI thought I'd lost this account entirely, due to inactivity and then it being purged, but no! Here it is, and here I am!
I'm really sadly amused that my last post was about my husband buying me sexy/slutty whatever, because that just came up again two nights ago. He said "so, it's been about 18 months since you told me not to buy you any more of that stuff. I'd like to buy you some, so can we try that again?" Sir pointed out that basically, this is saying "Hey, you told me you didn't want a thing, but I want it, so can we do it again?" Ummmmm....
I don't think I actually gave a definitive answer, but it was a wandering wishy washy "sure, but only one thing, and you have to ask me first." We'll see what happens. Perhaps I should be direct with him and say "Let's try out me wearing what I have already for a little while, first." Of course, then I have de facto agreed to wear the stuff I have, for "a little while," and I don't want to do that either.
Sir also pointed out that this would be me, agreeing to be objectified, or at least sexualized. That has always been a hard thing for me, which is why Sir likes to do it. It fits within our D/s paradigm. I do not have that paradigm with my husband, which is why I keep telling him I don't like it. It doesn't really matter that I think some of the things look better on me than others of the things; I have to work really hard to feel good or happy *about* wearing them.
It's been three years since that post, and it's still as true.
I'm really sadly amused that my last post was about my husband buying me sexy/slutty whatever, because that just came up again two nights ago. He said "so, it's been about 18 months since you told me not to buy you any more of that stuff. I'd like to buy you some, so can we try that again?" Sir pointed out that basically, this is saying "Hey, you told me you didn't want a thing, but I want it, so can we do it again?" Ummmmm....
I don't think I actually gave a definitive answer, but it was a wandering wishy washy "sure, but only one thing, and you have to ask me first." We'll see what happens. Perhaps I should be direct with him and say "Let's try out me wearing what I have already for a little while, first." Of course, then I have de facto agreed to wear the stuff I have, for "a little while," and I don't want to do that either.
Sir also pointed out that this would be me, agreeing to be objectified, or at least sexualized. That has always been a hard thing for me, which is why Sir likes to do it. It fits within our D/s paradigm. I do not have that paradigm with my husband, which is why I keep telling him I don't like it. It doesn't really matter that I think some of the things look better on me than others of the things; I have to work really hard to feel good or happy *about* wearing them.
It's been three years since that post, and it's still as true.
